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CoDA E-Meditation, Aug. 25. 2014
BFFs….4-Ever?Some relationships we are born into.   Others, we freely choose. At their best, friendships bring joy, beauty, laughter, honesty and shared experiences and interests to my life.Communication is easier with my best friends than it is with other people because we “get” each other. There may be disagreements, but mutual respect and honesty is the rule.A good friend is as precious as gold. I am personally less guarded in friendships than I am in other relationships.  So somehow, I am always surprised when codependency issues arise in my friendships. Your besties, your bffs are supposed to be easier…right?  I’ve watched enough  “Sex in the City” to know they are the kindred spirits who are there with you through the drama of all your other relationships.  Friends have fun together and when needed, are always there with a shoulder to cry on and a pint of premium ice cream.And once you are friends, it’s happily 4-ever after.I can only speak from my own experience, but with close female friendships, the emotional connections are actually deeper and more long-lasting than many of my romantic relationships. Deciding to “break up” with a friend is as difficult, painful and troubling as any other breakup.  TRUTH; my codependency has caused me to get drawn into “frenemy” relationships and then wake up to that reality only in the midst of the “codependent crazies.”  Since I started my recovery, I have taken the initiative to end several long-standing friendships based on a combination of such things as:Longstanding patterns of irreconcilable differences about serious things (i.e. my friend thinks it’s okay to cheat on her partner. I do not.)A constant low-grade commentary of criticism or jealousy about my life.Inability to have an open, honest dialogue when needed/ issues never get resolved.Feeling “held hostage” by a needy friend who is starring in her own personal soap operaLOTS of gossip about others (and, by extension, me when I am out of earshot)Trying repeatedly to “save” my friend from herself and terrible choicesFeeling guilty to admit to myself that  I am no longer happy with the relationship because we’ve been friends “forever.” In creating this list, I realized that at times I have actually been the perpetrator of these things and more!Happily, all my relationships have benefitted from attending CoDA and practicing basic skills such as saying “no” when I need to, speaking up when something is bothering me, and deciding that if a friendship no longer feels right to me,that I may choose to end it.   Sometimes, depending on the friend and their level of self-awareness, it is easier to simply “fade away” from the friendship in a “don’t ask/don’t tell” situation.No, it’s not the healthiest solution but it has a place.  Not everything needs to be hashed out, especially with a willfully combative person. I have also tried taking the risk and speaking up when I had concerns about something.  Sometimes, it spelled the end.But sometimes we were able to move past that dark spot and the friendship deepened that much more.As a child I remember thinking that I didn’t really “know” a friend until we had our first fight.  I instinctively realized you see people’s true colorswhen the chips are down.  If you don’t like what you are seeing, a healthy person takes the risk of putting it on the table. If it works, your friendship will improve.  If not, you learned a valuable lesson.  Also, you can now open that space in your life to bring in the kind of person you want to have around.The world is full of wonderful people.  Life is too short to hang out with the ones you don’t really like.Are you concerned you may be in an unhealthy friendship? Read this: http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/healthy-connections/201006/7-signs-youre-in-toxic-friendshipPeace, love and fun in the sun, Lynn S. and the CoDA Board http://www.codaomaha.org DON’T FORGET THE CODA ROUNDUP, WEDNESDAY SEPT 17 FROM 7 - 9 P.M. AT THE 12 STEP HOUSE!

CoDA E-Meditation, Aug. 25. 2014

BFFs….4-Ever?

Some relationships we are born into.   Others, we freely choose. At their best, friendships bring joy, beauty, laughter, honesty and shared experiences and interests to my life.
Communication is easier with my best friends than it is with other people because we “get” each other. There may be disagreements, but mutual respect and honesty is the rule.
A good friend is as precious as gold.

I am personally less guarded in friendships than I am in other relationships. 

So somehow, I am always surprised when codependency issues arise in my friendships. Your besties, your bffs are supposed to be easier…right?  I’ve watched enough  “Sex in the City” to know they are the kindred spirits who are there with you through the drama of all your other relationships.  Friends have fun together and when needed, are always there with a shoulder to cry on and a pint of premium ice cream.
And once you are friends, it’s happily 4-ever after.

I can only speak from my own experience, but with close female friendships, the emotional connections are actually deeper and more long-lasting than many of my romantic relationships.
Deciding to “break up” with a friend is as difficult, painful and troubling as any other breakup. 

TRUTH; my codependency has caused me to get drawn into “frenemy” relationships and then wake up to that reality only in the midst of the “codependent crazies.” 
Since I started my recovery, I have taken the initiative to end several long-standing friendships based on a combination of such things as:

Longstanding patterns of irreconcilable differences about serious things (i.e. my friend thinks it’s okay to cheat on her partner. I do not.)
A constant low-grade commentary of criticism or jealousy about my life.
Inability to have an open, honest dialogue when needed/ issues never get resolved.
Feeling “held hostage” by a needy friend who is starring in her own personal soap opera
LOTS of gossip about others (and, by extension, me when I am out of earshot)
Trying repeatedly to “save” my friend from herself and terrible choices
Feeling guilty to admit to myself that  I am no longer happy with the relationship because we’ve been friends “forever.”

In creating this list, I realized that at times I have actually been the perpetrator of these things and more!
Happily, all my relationships have benefitted from attending CoDA and practicing basic skills such as saying “no” when I need to,
speaking up when something is bothering me, and deciding that if a friendship no longer feels right to me,
that I may choose to end it.  

Sometimes, depending on the friend and their level of self-awareness, it is easier to simply “fade away” from the friendship in a “don’t ask/don’t tell” situation.
No, it’s not the healthiest solution but it has a place.  Not everything needs to be hashed out, especially with a willfully combative person.

I have also tried taking the risk and speaking up when I had concerns about something.  Sometimes, it spelled the end.
But sometimes we were able to move past that dark spot and the friendship deepened that much more.

As a child I remember thinking that I didn’t really “know” a friend until we had our first fight.  I instinctively realized you see people’s true colors
when the chips are down.  If you don’t like what you are seeing, a healthy person takes the risk of putting it on the table.
If it works, your friendship will improve.  If not, you learned a valuable lesson.  Also, you can now open that space in your life to bring in the kind of person you want to have around.

The world is full of wonderful people.  Life is too short to hang out with the ones you don’t really like.

Are you concerned you may be in an unhealthy friendship? Read this:
http://www.psychologytoday.com/blog/healthy-connections/201006/7-signs-youre-in-toxic-friendship


Peace, love and fun in the sun,
Lynn S. and the CoDA Board
http://www.codaomaha.org

DON’T FORGET THE CODA ROUNDUP, WEDNESDAY SEPT 17 FROM 7 - 9 P.M. AT THE 12 STEP HOUSE!

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"Irreplaceable"

Another installment from “The Beyoncelogues.”Bwahahahahaha!  Preach it, sistah! Healthy women do not put up with MAYHEM and FOOLISHNESS.

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THE JOURNEYI am not really a “poetry” person, but I read this poem in about 2009 as part of a yoga teacher training.  It immediately brought tears to my eyes when I read it, as great art will do.  It caught me off guard because it gave voice to an experience had been struggling with, but subconsciously.I didn’t even know it was such a big part of me until this poem tapped into those emotions.In my recovery, the arts, music, theater, podcats, and even that awesome, ridiculous tv show “Glee” have become part of how I experience a higher power.  They connect me to both the beauty and the terror of being a human being. (< FYI, I appropriated that line from a Carlos Castaneda book! This stuff is everywhere if you just pay attention.)
Anyway, I hope you enjoy the poem.The Journey by Mary OliverOne day you finally knewwhat you had to do, and began,though the voices around youkept shoutingtheir bad advice–though the whole housebegan to trembleand you felt the old tugat your ankles.‘Mend my life!’each voice cried.But you didn’t stop.You knew what you had to do,though the wind priedwith its stiff fingersat the very foundations,though their melancholywas terrible.It was already lateenough, and a wild night,and the road full of fallenbranches and stones.But little by little,as you left their voices behind,the stars began to burnthrough the sheets of clouds,and there was a new voicewhich you slowlyrecognised as your own,that kept you companyas you strode deeper and deeperinto the world,determined to dothe only thing you could do–determined to savethe only life you could save.Peace and love, Lynn S. and the CoDA Board http://www.codaomaha.org "To Thine Own Self Be True."

THE JOURNEY

I am not really a “poetry” person, but I read this poem in about 2009 as part of a yoga teacher training. 
It immediately brought tears to my eyes when I read it, as great art will do.  It caught me off guard because it gave voice to an experience had been struggling with, but subconsciously.
I didn’t even know it was such a big part of me until this poem tapped into those emotions.

In my recovery, the arts, music, theater, podcats, and even that awesome, ridiculous tv show “Glee” have become part of how I experience a higher power. 
They connect me to both the beauty and the terror of being a human being. (< FYI, I appropriated that line from a Carlos Castaneda book! This stuff is everywhere if you just pay attention.)

Anyway, I hope you enjoy the poem.


The Journey by Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice–
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
‘Mend my life!’
each voice cried.
But you didn’t stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognised as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do–
determined to save
the only life you could save.


Peace and love,
Lynn S. and the CoDA Board
http://www.codaomaha.org

"To Thine Own Self Be True."

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Post-it Notes Left on the Train

Writer and illustrator October Jones, the creative genius behind Text From Dog and these funny train commute doodles, is at it again with these hilarious motivational post-it notes that he leaves on the train and in other random places.The upbeat doodles, which star Jones’ adorable character Peppy the Inspirational Cat, convey positive and funny messages meant to motivate daily commuters. Whether you’re feeling the Monday blues or in need of some encouragement, Jones’ delightful post-it notes are sure to brighten your day and remind you just how awesome you are.

Via My Modern Metropolis 

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